the new year's outlook

so i saw a really cool performance today at the cerritos performing arts center. it was called, Jungua. it was a show that included both acrobatics and shaolin martial arts. i saw things that i didn't know people could do with their bodies haha! i saw one of the girls doing extremely flexible stuff with her body while holding these huge like metal things that hold a ton of candles ridiculous... also seeing the guys break steel bars and other things on their head was pretty amazing. what caught my interest the most was when they would focus their Chi to certain parts of their body allowing for full concentration of the mind and body in that area so that they can become inhumanly strong. strong enough to be able to bend spears and be suspended by spears too! thats was crazzyyy!!!

so after that was all said and done, my sax teacher (ray) came over to my house to write me a letter of recommendation since his computer doesn't work. and while that was happening, my parents all of a sudden were arguing in my dad's office (if you can call it that). my parents marriage has not been a smooth one for the past few years. it is always so quiet in my house. my parents economic status is not the greatest so i'm sure that has caused some problems. but mainly it has been the issues between them. they were angry at each other and i could hear them too and ray was still here X_X. so i decided to play some music through my amp to drown them out.

i began to think about going to college. its going to definitely be an experience i'll never forget. however i'm afraid to leave. i'm afraid that when i come back for the holidays, there isn't going to be much of a home to come back to. or maybe even a family.... people do things to keep things together in a family especially when it has to do with children. my grandma quit smoking when me and my brother were born. thats why i'm afraid to leave.

on to the new year

i really like the gifts i got this year! thank you everybody! i hope everyone also enjoyed all the gifts i gave to you peoples out there as well. =) i know it wasn't very many, but nonetheless you people were in my thoughts haha. merry christmas!


ohh when i was wearing my new vest i got my from my aunt, i felt something weird in one of the pockets. i found out that it was this 3 inch long needle X_X how did it get there??? weeeird.

now for new years! i can't wait till the ski trip! my car is in the shop getting checked and everything before this trip so that it won't have any problems. my dad told me that i should get lessons. and surprisingly, it costs exactly the same as if i didn't have any lesson haha! perfectt.

so this new year is going to bring a lot of change for me. heading off to college is going to be the biggest. i know that as i get closer to other people, i'm going to get farther away from others T_T. thats the sad truth to reality right there. i'm gonna miss all the people in band. i'm going to miss my entire church family. i'm going to miss even my own family! and of course, i'm going to miss all those moments that were found in high school that i will never be able to experience again. Marching band was definitely one. the dances. my one amazing relationship. gone. hopefully things will change for the better. i'll be optimistic =)

09!!!

forgiveness

forgiveness can be similar to gifts. but i believe sometimes it is much harder to give than to receive in most cases. and even if you do, you still think about what they have done since there is no guarantee that it will happen again. but that will dribble down into the amount of trust you have.

i realize why i forgave this person. even after all the things that have happened. as difficult as it was, i feel like i'm in debt to this person.

weekend update

so the LA trip was kinda interesting. i was so tired the whole time haha. that was the first time i've ever actually been ice skating! and also first time on hollywood blvd. so i got to see all the stereotypical stuff you would go to California to see haha!

the day before this LA trip was pretty crazy hahah. sunday was church as usual. but then later on that night was this lil pageant or play i should say haha. i had a part in it where i was one of the soldiers that guards king herod. super easy part. very funny looking uniform. it was made from cardboards haha.before i went on i had to freeze outside X_X. so i invited one family but they weren't able to attend =/ its ok though cuz i talked to them the next day and got filled in. so then afterwards we played this game called Familiy Business. so fun! it has to do with mobs and other things. it just took a long time to play but it was still pretty fun. i had such good cards too but i wasn't able to win. and then after that, i went over to arian and agiane's house. i didn't expect to be like their guinea pig hhaha! i walked out of there with some makeup on and shaved legs X_X i looked like some sad clown XD. i guess thats what happens when you play truth or dare i guess with a bunch of girls. i'll try to keep that in mind later.

blog nite!

haha i guess thats what i'm gonna do. its too late to practice what i need to really work on. but yea.

i wanna get past this mental block of singing and playing guitar at the same time haha. its weird! thinking about two different rhythms at the same time is difficult. maybe if i get some lessons about singing that would help too XD

i'm glad i got all my christmas shopping done early! i was able to get all the people i really needed to get. if i had some more money i woudl've gotten a lil more.

pretty big day tomorrow! 1st up is some thing for my church where we're gonna deliver gifts to a family that has been going through rough times. its going to be with my youth group! but i can't stay for long =/ cuz soon after i have to fill in for nick seranio for some sax quartet gig in some trailer park? hahaha. random but yea. i got nick to pay me for it. and then kristen's christmas party till who knows when.

and before these i think i'll bake cookies (or at least try). at church we were given this box with recipes inside. the goal was to give a full box of cookies or some sort of treat to somebody. and this somebody wasn't supposed to be like a relative you forgot. but somebody that you didn't originally thought about giving a gift but you believe deserves one. and i figured who to give it to. its this one kid in my youth group who seems like an outcast in a way. i believe he really deserves it. so yea thats the plan wish me luck!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! HAVE A SAFE NEW YEAR AS WELL!

trying it out!

so i'm just checking out this blogspot whatever it is haha. never tried it but it looks interesting!